The unknown.

I choose to term this entry as the unknown. Cos there are really a lot of unknowns this year. When can i get my masters? Will i go for the social work degree? Will i be going to Thailand? Will i be going to America? And most importantly, will God grant me the wish that i secretly desire in my heart? Seriously, all these are unknown. I wish i could see what is far ahead on the road i am treading on. But sad to say, i don't and i can't. Maybe that's where trusting comes. Trusting God. But i can't help to question God. And maybe i might not trust God deep enough. Life comes in a cycle. When i think i've gotten it, it comes back again. I can't help envying people like e, x, cos i always felt they have a better lot. I always think that my lot is bad. I do not know how to get out of it seriously, but i just have to move on cos the sun doesn't stop shining and life moves on. I am afraid of the future. With the way how things are going, i absolutely have no hopes for the future. I don't know what lies ahead. I don't see what i want is going to come through. Is it still my choice then? Many thoughts, many questions but no answer. I just have to wait. wait. wait.