My life.

Lost in my life. Lost in myself. There is a need to find some direction in my life once again. People left me disappointed and disillusioned. Sometimes i really wonder, what is friendship all about? Or is there really true friendship in this world? I am tired of all the searching. I am tired of living my life like this. Is life ever fair. WY told me, this is my portion. We all have different portions in life and it is never a choice. Is that right? Can someone tell me the answer to that?

Just yesterday, i was entertaining this thought of going to Thailand to work...yes. social work. one years to two years. Question ppl ask me, will i be able to stand the loneliness there? being alone? I know i can't. People ask me, am i escaping? Maybe i am.

I don't know what to do anymore.